Cause I don't want to lose you now, I'm looking right at the other half of me.

3 weeks since I've updated. I have way more photos than this but thennnnnnnnn. I don't know where those went. So, its 2 days to promos, I'm so damn screwed but I can be here updating my blog and watching Idol Star Athletics Championship 2013. Meh. September holidays was pretty much wasted because I completely did not do anything productive other than eating, neither did I even complete my homework. Went to school for PW on both Saturdays and played hide and seek, so damn funny, reliving childhood times. So after we did PW, and played and had dinner, we walked from Orchard to Somerset to get Gongcha and lepak around. After a holiday lesson, we can actually go for a sushi buffet at sakae sushi, this is the life. Holidays I had Korean bbq buffet, mentioned previously, went to Sarang with my usual girls after teachers' day celebration, had pizza when we went to Eehui's house, and much more I don't even remember. And guess what, ever since school reopened, I've been eating bread/flour everyday. Throughout the week, it has been subway, pizza, subway, macs, burger shack, mos burger, subway. Omg please. I can't get any fatter. Anyway, I just have to get over this week, but I'm sure its gonna be so damn tiring and busy and stressful and whatsoever. Promos are so much more worrying than O levels, what is this, what is jc life, what is life.

 

 

17-09-2013, bro's 14th birthday, woohoo ~ We had pizza ~ He's now taller than me, buuhoo ~ Meh. Let's just wish he can grow more, and please hit the gym more if you see this. hehehe.

 

 

 

 

 

This is what we do during Chinese lesson and PW lesson. And of course, there's always a weather for cardigans to be on, yay ~~~ my pw group is cute at all times.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now, time for some thinking.

 

 

 

And then again , I really don't know how my heart feels. Its like I'm thankful but at the same time, I'm annoyed. Annoyed with how I bothered with every single shit when I could simply just ignore, like how I really know how others feel but I choose not to face it. It makes me look so mean, but then people did say I'm mean, I'm not kind, so what for do I act like I care, since it all seems fake. And then there's those people who are willing to listen and willing to stand by me no matter how my character is like, no matter what kind of nonsense I actually give to them. The kind of people that deals with my shit and push me on. At those moment, I find myself stupid, I act all indifferent but deep down I know what they have said are true. I don't know how to feel about people being able to read right through me, its like I can't even hide no shit because they catches on everything. I'm back to being irritated again by how people just say things I want to hide right in my face as though I'm shameless or whatsoever. Its so confusing. It feels as though the reality is coming so close to me, I just want to run away again.